The other day I realized that I repeated (yet again) a past pattern that has caused me enormous pain and confusion.
As I sat there feeling that all too familiar punch in the gut pain, I thought: “Geez, I must not have much self-respect to keep doing this to myself…”.
My head then began to take me on a rollercoaster ride of judgement – where I began to feel worse *thinking* thoughts such as: “Other stronger, more worldly women - would never continually subject themselves to this type of pain. You must be weak – and they simply have more self-respect for themselves.”
So, then as I habitually do, I went outside myself to get a better understanding of what the outside world could tell me about self-judgement....