The other day I had a conversation with a friend who shared how worried she was about a health issue reoccurring in her life. She was having some symptoms that felt familiar and started to go into a spiral of fear that her former health issues were returning.
We talked about her shifting her thoughts. Thinking positive. Letting go of negative images and envisioning a good outcome.
This friend is like a fish to water when it comes to embracing a more positive mindset. Yet, for some reason she was resisting this approach.
She prayed about it and then prayed some more. Then, all of a sudden, it dawned on her. She realized that she’s held onto a lifelong pattern of being worried, fearful and scared when it came to things that felt out of her control.
When she would feel vulnerable, her natural tendency was to go into fear vs. going into faith. She admitted that she felt like she was skipping over God if she decided to be confident and positive. That she was being arrogant and rebellious vs. being worried and compliant.
It is hard to fathom why she, or any of us, would fear feeling confident, powerful and sure of ourselves and our own worthiness. Yet it happens and it is often totally unconscious.
Marianne Williamson’s quote comes to mind which I’ll paraphrase:
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness
That most frightens us.
At first glance your head may instantly say to you – that’s not me! Why would I be fearful of my power and light?
If you’ve ever found yourself in a vulnerable situation and feeling the need to worry, fear and be anxious, consider that you may be utilizing these feelings to feel more in control. You may feel more powerful feeling weak than you do feeling confident.
If you’ve made a life out of being humble, unassuming and staying in the background, you may have a fear of being arrogant. You yearn to be confident but mistake that yearning for arrogance.
My friend thought that being confident and sure would overstep her relationship with God. As if God would want her to live and BE in a “less than” position her whole life.
I believe this belief system is more common than we realize. To help you see what beliefs you may be holding around this, here are some questions and things to consider and contemplate:
What if that old belief system needs to be transformed?
What if God/Universe/Higher Power has been waiting for you to truly Claim Your Worth! and embrace the power you were born with?
What if you’ve believed you were "less than" but this whole time you were equal and one with your Higher Power/Source? Does that thought inspire you or frighten you?
Arrogance means to feel above not equal. What if your relationship with God/Your Higher Power is equal and collaborative, not "less than" and dependent?
Next time you face a challenging situation give thought to these concepts and ask yourself am I fearful of being arrogant and “too much”?
Am I more comfortable believing I’m “less than”? If so, why? What power does this belief system give me and what power does it take away?
Deep realizations result in deep transformations.